Failure
AngerIt wasn't hard to broadcast to friends or peers when asked "how are your scores?"
The usual answer would've been "i flunked" , accompanied by a sheepish smile or a an intense look of disbelief. All in all, It wasn't something to feel immensely humiliated about.
But failing, now that i am 27, i realized is much harder to swallow. All those nights that i have spent studying, the cigarettes and coffee, the will or determination to make it, has all come to the bitter end.
Yup, i failed my Airbus A340 Certification.
AND NOT FOR THE LACK OF TRYING...no....no...noo...noooo..noooooo.
I guess what i really find frustrating is the general apathy over here of most people. Its like that blank stare my boss gave me when i told him "Chief, i failed my certification."
He just looked at me and said "Transport concerns and changing the Cafeteria concessionnaire will be endorsed to you next week.." and went back to work.
It's not as if studying the whole make of an A340 aircraft was not confusing enough. I am in the recruitment section of HR. The new project had nothing to do with recruitment. And, it's not as if i haven't had enough to handle this week alone - training 6 hours everyday and they have kept me away from my lunch and coffee breaks to fulfill my paperwork and projects, relentlessly. Not to mention that this whole training is completely unrelated to my line of work, yet, i got nominated to learn technically operated and engineered aircrafts.
So, that's it, i failed...better retake the whole course. That's another one week.
Failure- best when served cold.
Wow!
Hopeless
